*Photo above from shutterstock. Don’t worry – I did not take a picture of myself in the bathroom!
I just went to the bathroom to find a little spotting. (sorry if this is TMI! but after everything I have shared, this should not be a big deal). My initial thoughts … worried & bummed. I know that I have heard and read that spotting does not mean you are not pregnant. It could actually be a result of implantation. I know I should not jump to any conclusions but I am human and my thoughts will always think about the scenarios.
I came out and told Matt immediately. He looked at my sympathetically and also mentioned that it does not mean it did not work. I know .. I know .. I say. .. and I do know, but I am getting more anxious.
Next move? Google of course! I go online and google “spotting before beta” . I come upon a forum where a woman is asking the same question:
I anxiously scroll down to see the responses:
Here is the person that asked the question follow up later ..
Needless to say that this thread made me feel better. I could go down a huge rabbit hole right now and keep on googling endlessly and try to self diagnose myself but I am stopping here. I decided to write this journal entry instead!
Now for some meditation and sleep.
Sleep well my friends. I wait for Monday.
