I write this as I am currently 36 weeks pregnant with my second child. This third trimester has caught me by surprise in so many ways. First, it has snuck up on me, I know I can’t be pregnant forever, but just like in my first pregnancy I always want more time because I do not feel ready. I know I will never feel ready. The second pregnancy I don’t feel ready for different reasons. This is the first of four posts where I will be expressing the emotions and feelings that I have been going through.
Sad this will be my last time experiencing being pregnant …
My first emotion is that time goes so quickly. I am starting to get sad that this will most likely be the last time I am pregnant and thus the last time that I’ll experience this transformation. I don’t know if this makes me odd, but I can say that I truly enjoy being pregnant. I love the feeling that there is a little one growing inside me, the changes that my body goes through and most of all feeling those little kicks and movements within. If you have kept up with my fertility journey, you will know that it was a 1% miracle that I could even get pregnant with my first child. I am so grateful that not only was I able to have, T, my daughter, but now a second child too. If you had told me 3 years ago when I had been trying for over six years to be pregnant that I would be sitting here right now writing about my second pregnancy and child, I would never have believed it!
I sit here now trying to enjoy to every last minute of this pregnancy. My ever growing belly. Every kick and movement. I even like how strangers will approach me to ask me about my pregnancy (even if they are telling me how big my belly is and that the baby must be coming soon!). When you are pregnant, it’s similar to walking around with a puppy – people let down their guard and are extremely friendly. This is a wonderful thing to experience, especially in a big city like New York. I am so grateful to be able to experience this amazing transformation my body goes through in pregnancy and most importantly the results of it. What is more magical than growing and carrying a little person inside you? The body is an incredible thing. I will truly miss this.