As you know I had many thoughts going through my mind before having little Lee here. One of the main concerns is how could I love anyone more than I do T. Many people told me “You’ll see, once you take a look at that baby, you will be immediately in love .. “ or “Your love does not divide, it multiplies”. So were they right?
The simple answer is Yes. Even when I was in labor about to have him, I still did not feel “ready” for him. .. but then he was born and they placed him on my chest. This little human that had just come out, so new, so innocent, so perfect. It is truly amazing what the human body can do. I am still amazed looking at Lee and at Teagan, knowing that they grew inside me. Seriously, how amazing is that? Okay, I deviate .. now onto Lee.
My first reaction was that Lee looked so much like Teagan when she was born, I was taken aback a bit. I knew that there would be some similarities, but it was almost like I went back in time. I was looking at T again, but as a newborn baby (Side by side comparison: in the photo below T is on the left and Lee is on the right). Lee of course is not Teagan and I would not wish him to be. I still remember the feeling of him on my chest, eyes open and I knew that everyone was right. This little human was already so loved beyond words.
Lee was born at 2 pm on February 8. A few hours later, we brought Teagan to meet her little brother for the first time. I will cherish this meeting always. Teagan came in all excited, big smile on her face and she was so sweet, as she always is. She listened when we told her not to touch baby Lee on the face and only on the top of the head or on his clothing. She patted him so gently. Matt brought sandwiches and we had a little “picnic” in the hospital room. Teagan and I on the bed, Matt in the chair next to the bed and baby Lee in the “cart” as Teagan kept saying. It was one of the happiest moments I have experienced. My little family all in one place, it is everything I could have ever dreamed. I am so grateful.
As I write this, Lee is two weeks old today. We have gotten a chance to know him a bit better and I look forward to watching and being a part of his life as he grows up into the man he will become. I look over to watch him sleeping while I’m about to have lunch. I have to say, that the second has been much less stress inducing than the first. With Matt and home and Teagan in daycare, it almost feels like a peaceful staycation. Baby Lee has been super chill to say the least. He sleeps well during the evenings for the most part and I actually have to wake him up for nursing (knock on wood). Breastfeeding, which was my biggest stress inducer when I had Teagan has been much easier. My milk came in quickly and Lee is a great eater. He has been passing all the doctor appts thus far with flying colors and he is already giving us little smiles and smirks. The biggest obstacle is juggling two kids, as many people had warned me about and sad that T has given me a bit of the cold shoulder at times (I am going to write another post dedicated to this soon). When Matt goes back to work in a week, I truly don’t know how I am going to wrangle these two on my own every morning. I guess I’ll just figure it out as I go, right?!
To my baby Lee. I love you to the moon and back and I can’t believe I ever doubted it before you were here. You are loved more than you will ever know.